Who am I..??

I have not read the replies.

To me you sound like a normal mum who has just had a baby. I think it is easy to get in this way, if you factor in hormones, being tired, a baby needing you, running a house & looking after DP it can be very easy to lose yourself.

I think if you do little things for yourself you will start feeling good. Start with shaving your legs, putting cream on, doing your nails. These little things can make a huge difference to how you feel. If you can get a hair cut that little bit of pampering can work wonders.

If you can give yourself some money, say $100 get some cheap boots, new pants & a top, they can be your going out clothes. If you don't have the money to spend, can you sew or get second hand, you don't need to spend a fortune.

I don't have any experience with depression but I do know how sometimes things can get on top of you & how overwhelming being a mum is. I take a bath, paint my nails, make a cuppa & read a mag/book, just a few minutes to recharge the batteries. I think once you start thinking of everything you feel is wrong it can seem too hard to sort out so pick 1 thing you want to change & do it.

If after you change these things you feel no better then I think you should see a Doctor.

& don't be so hard on yourself

Oh Iv been there still am sometimes,
1st thing I did was get a hair cut I went from having plain straight long brown hair that yes was always just in a pony tail. Im lucky pimples have not seemed to have ever been a problem for me. but jandles, and trackies I wore for a few yrs.
until about 6mths after I had My last baby I went out for a night with some friends from school and I suddenly found myself again. and started to do things that I had forgotten that I use to enjoy very much. I have also changed my complete wradrobe which instead of just daggy sneakers or jandles and trackies is now nice boots and jeans. I can now walk into a store and instead of thinking oh I cant wear that now I realise yes I can.

my problem is I am quite short and finding pants that arnt to long is quite impossible especially in my size.

I have to say I swore when I was pg with Jack that I would always have a shower and get dressed as soon as possible after getting up, usually within the hour. I have always managed this even if it was a quick 2min jump in then out and it always helps me start the day on a good note.

ChildsPlay, glad you have made a few changes, booked the hair cut etc, hope it helps. If you don't feel like talking with your GP maybe try calling Maternal Mental Health, you may not have PND but I am sure they could help you work that out and have some suggestions for you, they may possibly understand a bit more than your GP