Should I feel bad?

Im currently doing a beauty course, I started it in November and even though I love beauty and such Im just not enjoying this course at all! Ive done nail technology and finished it and passed and Ive done hair dressing and finished it and passed, so Im no slacker.
I have to drive an hour to get to where my course is and I guess Im just so sick of the driving, its really tiring. The other thing is that Ive been having back problems(which they know about) and have had time off over it(was meant to go back to course last Monday but went back yesterday) its so sore sometimes that I cant sleep at night, and the last thing I want to do is drive for an hour with having had no sleep, a sore back and being 5 months pregnant! Im not going into today cos last night I was up and down out of bed like a jack in the box and I got next to no sleep, so i dont feel like going in, but I feel bad about it, I always do when I dont go into work or course if Im sick or whatever, but, I shouldnt feel bad should I?
The other thing is that we have to wear black and white, which I do when I go, but yesterday I wore my black swade boots and was told im not allowed to wear them cos they are "not the right fashion for beauty"!!! I wear them cos they are flat and comfy! Not for a fashion statment, I would ahve thought theyd be a little more understanding with all the problems Ive had since before christmas and seems as they kow Im pregnant! I was going to ask them if I could wear my maternity jeans and skirt but I know they wont let me if I cant even wear a nice pair of boots!
Grrr, I somtimes feel like Im being silly, but other times i dont. I feel my health is more important that a beauty certificate...

Sorry rant over, I just needed to get it off my chest!

Edited by Sheza

Thats what I thought! They are only shoes!
I guess my hormones are all up the shoot. I just wish i was back at my office job I was busy and earning money. Now I just feel grumpy and poor lol

thats what I felt like saying but I dont have the guts lol. I did say to my tutor that I wore them cos I think they are comfy and that I didnt think it would be a problem as Ive seen other girls wear boots....?! Oh well...I have some other shoes I can wear, but Im not going out to buy anything specialy for course, cant afford it.

Yeah thats what I would have thought they would be like, who cares what Im wearing my feet as long as Im comfy! I dont see how its such a big deal. If I wore jandels they would probably send me home! Grr, Id LOVE to wear jandels as its so hot.

Yeah thats true, thanks guys!
I think Im just having overall a bad time latley, with having no money so having to move back home, then all the bills we had to pay off from the rental house, then my back playing up and having no sleep, and the heat which add's to the no sleep. I just feel down in the dumps and frustrated Poor DF was worried about me this morning cos Im so emotional right now.

Aww that doesn't sound cricket to me. They need to make allowances for you, I mean it's only shoes for goodness sake!

I hope you get it resolved soon, I was the same as Stacey, I wore trackpants and jandals to work in my last few weeks!!

And hey if you're that miserable, maybe who should stop the course for now?

You'll definitely qualify for the Sickness Benefit! Just get a med cert from your doctor. You might be entitled to accomodation as well? I'd do the research, sit down with your partner and weigh up the pros and cons. If this course is making you sick and not helping your back, well you might have to look after number one and number two.

Man thats not good. I wore jandels and jeans in the last few weeks of my job before I had Josh.

I would be going to the top and asking why and what they can do to help you.

busymum wrote: Firstly, it's just a course so I can't see the big deal with wearing comfy. I wouldn't buy another pair of shoes if you're happy with what you've got - just another financial pressure that's not necessary. The fact is, you're pregnant, and it's not easy to look stylish and pregnant at the same time. It doesn't mean that you don't understand looking nice!! Secondly, now seems like it would be as good a time as any to look into what you'll be living off when baby is born. What can you cut back on? It'll be no help to you if you stick out a course you're too exhausted for, simply for the sake of the money - especially because I don't think you're entitled to any benefit (only allowances/tax credits) after the baby is born? Certainly worth looking into

Yeah exactly, its just a course thats why I cant see why they are being such dicks about my shoes, when its my feet that are taking all the extra weight etc that Im carrying! I dont think its very fair.
DF and I are pretty good on his wage, the only thing we find a bit of a struggle is me having to drive an hour to course and back, which takes up at least $100 a week, so if I didnt have to do that traveling we would have more money to put into our savings and Id only have to spend maybe $30 a week on pretrol.
Its just my darn loans, the car is paid off in July so just after Caden is born(yay!) and that money is to my dad so Im pretty sure he will be good to me if I cant pay just after Caden is born. The other $71 is a bank loan so we will somehow manage that.
After baby is born we will be able to get the WFF tax thingy and that other payment to new mums for 8 weeks. So my problem is what to do for the last 4 months of my pregnancy....I can go on the sickness benefit after 27 weeks due to my back problems but Im not sure how much they will give me...

Edited by Sheza

Sheza, you shouldn't feel bad - you're going through a really tough time with lots of pressures so DON'T FEEL BAD!!!! Definitely go to the top of the course.

Can you talk to your MW about your back - I don't know what's going on with it but maybe a referral to the women's health physio at your local hospital could help, especially to help you out as bubs gets bigger and puts more pressure on you. I'd also talk to the MW about sleep - I've started on homeopathic sleeping tablets cos I was up so much but my MW was open to putting me on a short course of sleeping tablets if needed, just to break the cycle. I imagine your sleep has now got into a bad pattern and it's darned hard work to break on your own, especially if you are stressed.

Look after yourself and your wee Caden!