Hi - sorry I realised I have posted in the wrong section. Have re-posted in M/C, as that is prob more appropriate. Please excuse newbie!
I would like to have a wee rant, if you don't mind. I've been having ttc dramas and I don't really have anyone to talk to about it. My friends are either preggie / have babies - or they are career focused at this point and not interested in ttc.
Me and hubby ditched the birth control on the honeymoon and I came home pregnant! But sadly only a few days after a bfp, I was in the Emergency Dept. I had had sharp stabbing pains in one side and bleeding and PAAAIN! In the scan they never saw an embryo, but I was told it was most likely an ectopic. I was so lucky I didn't have to have surgery or the injection that removes the embryo from the tube.
Although I was only preggie for 5 weeks, I was so devastated, but after a week I put on a brave face and got on with it. I'm so happy I didn't tell all and sundry I was pregnant! It was really hard breaking the bad news to family members who did know. Sometimes when I see babies now I feel like crying!
Anyway I was told to wait two cycles and then I was free to try again. Well two cycles rolled around and I was free to try again this month. But goddamn it, at the time when I would have been ovulating I had the worst flu eva! No baby making was possible - snotty, feverish and deeply unsexy! Then I started having pains in my abdomen and thought it was a UTI. Turns out it was not a UTI and I eventually get sent to Emergency Dept again. Gyne suspected it was a cyst. But I had a scan today and no cyst, but maybe some scarring on the ovaries. I'm scared because I know scarring in the tubes can cause ectopics. I had really painful periods in my early twenties but just thought it was all part of being a woman - now I think maybe it was something more serious?? Going to gyne to discuss scan results tomorrow and I'm soo nervous to hear bad news. All I want now is a baby.
One more thing, I have wanted a baby for ages but tried to be a good girl and do all the right things careerwise, financially and even got married - and now I feel so depressed that this is happening and like I should've just thought stuff it a few years ago and got me a bun in the oven then!
That was quite long - sorry. If any of you have been in a similar situation or have any suggestions, I would love to hear from you:)
Edited by Hope
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