Scared....

Am I being irrational and abnormal? We have finally decided when we will start to TTC number 2 and I really really want another baby but I am so scared of the whole process. It took us nearly a year to fall PG with DD (while everyone else around us fell PG) then I had a pretty hard pregnancy with contractions and hospitalisation at 28 weeks, then gestational diabetes (which is 99% guaranteed to comeback next pregnancy) then induced early due to GD and then DD had terrible silent reflux and screamed non stop for the first few months.....these things freak me out, but then I think of all the things I was so lucky with no MS, quick easy straightforward birth (minus the induction of course) DD slept through early once reflux was under control and has been a easy chilled out baby/toddler so far.

Is what I am feeling normal? If it was not for certain circumstances we would probably have started TTC by now but when DH is away so much it does have to be planned in more ways than one, and I think because I have had so much time to think about it, I am freaking myself out. My biggest fear I think is that it will take a year which we don't even have as DH won't even be around.

Sorry for the long post I think I just needed to get that off my chest.

Each time is so different. Remember the pregnancy is only for 9 months so while it sucks to be in that time it is only for a short period, all the thing except the GD may not happen again.

Have you considered charting? So you are more aware & in "control" of the whole process?

Hi Heidismum, I think the feelings you have are normal, and as AandCsmum said Charting will help you get you timing right with TTC#2 and give you a better overall look at how your cycles are, its really easy and all the girls in the charting thread are there to help
GL

Thanks for the kind words everyone, I think just writing it down helped me realise I am being silly.

With the GD mine is not caused by weight just most likely genetics so I have been advised by the GD team at Auckland hospital that it will be back as I cannot do anything to actually stop it like lose weight, but at least I will be mentally prepared for it next time around.

I should be an expert at the scared thing. Daniel was really a breeze in that it didn't take much (one time) to get preg and I didn't have complications or anything... then...

I had an ectopic so every pregnancy I freak out wondering if its gonna be another ectopic since I still have my tube..

One that freak out is over with I get to freak out about fetal abnormalities..

And now my freak out is currently any time I hear mention of chicken pox since I've not had them

*sigh*

I think its normal to be scared but I will say this is it for me! Had enough of being scared and wanna get on with my boys.

Hey Aimee, I have to say ive been having exactly the same thoughts!
I never had a tough pregnancy by any means! but because when I got pregnant with Caitlin it was a massive shock, we weren't even trying, let alone even considering having children. Now that we are about to start TTC #2 im finding it really hard to get my head around and actually say right we are going to try and have another baby.. it scares me making the decision! Although im excited about possibly having another one as i'm loving having caitlin and she's sooo much fun. Its a weird feeling to describe I guess.

But I hope for you that this time it will all go alot easier for you! just remember we'll be here for you right through again, and possibly both in the same city at the same time too hehe!