Hyperemisis and feeling negative bout bub

I've been having severe hyperemisis with this pregnancy. Been in hospital twice now and off work for two weeks. I've never felt so ill in all my life.
We'd been trying for 7 months to get pregnant and I was ecstatic when I got my BFP. 2 days after that the MS started and it's gone downhill from there. I have had times when I wished for a miscarriage or that I hadn't got pregnant at all.
Normally I'm the cluckiest person on the planet, but when I went and saw a friends newborn a couple of weeks ago I just felt empty. And then I started thinking about how much hard work a newborn is and started dreading the fact that I'm going to have to do it all again.
Now that I'm out of hospital and been rehydrated I'm feeling a bit better about things. I'm on a cocktail of anti-emetics so hopefully that will make things better - still nauseous but able to keep things down.
Anyway, I'm just wondering with others who have gone through hyperemesis if you had feelings like I have and if you got over them. I worry that I might feel negative towards this baby through pregnancy and after it's birth. I feel like such a horrible person to feel this way.

I have to say Im kind of in the same boat, I had it bad with bailey, not so much aidan but this time round Ive had it bad, I know that with bailey it lasted till the end of second trimester so I hope that once I start feeling t his bub kick it will pass

I agree with Emma, once you have baby in your arms you wont feel like this

Thanks for your replies. It does make me feel a bit better knowing there are other people out there that understand. I know I don't want to have a miscarriage, and I would never forgive myself if it did happen now cos I'd feel I'd prompted it by thinking it, IYKWIM.

I did have hyperemisis with Keiran, but not as bad as this time.

I've been put on Ondansetron, Maxalon and Cyclizine. I still feel a bit nauseous but have managed to keep everything down today

Yay for keeping everything down today. Hopefully it's the start of many days. I certainly have felt much better since I've been able to eat more than just popcorn lol.

You know the thing I've always found funny is that I spend most of the time wishing for the nausea and vomitting to go and then when I have a good few hours DH and I get totally paranoid that something is wrong!

Zofran is the king of these drugs for me. Maxalon and cyclizine barely even touched the sides.

Hi Sue,
I had it real bad with my first, and since then it's been gradually less each pg. Anyways, loved Lou to bits the moment I saw her face. Made all the hospitalisations, drips and quick trips to the bathroom worthwhile.
Any residual nausea left as soon as the contractions started too, which is a bonus I hope you have. Take care, do things slowly if you can (much harder with your wee one around) and especially take any help your family/friends can give you. Its a condition that is easier to handle when you're rested.