Argh Heck, I’m confused!

Ok, so my ticker says that I am on day 4, and did a poas test last night, and I'm sure it was a faint line. I left it sitting by the sink and forgot about it. I told DF it was BFN and thought nothing of it. But it nagged at me overnight, and indeed I had a baby dream (not unusual for me) Then this morning I had another look at it. Now, it hadn't changed but after looking at it under the daylight (we have very weak bulbs in the bathroom, so we don't blind ourselves in the middle of the night) and showing it to DF, my heart skipped a little, and DF has even said maybe... Argh, so, is a line a line, or does it have to be really strong? It's not like I'm tilting it to eek out a view of it, its just really really faint.

After looking back at out BD dates, and with the knowledge that I OV quite late, then could I just be 'only just' pg, so therefore lower levels of HCG, thus weaker line? Or am I just sad and reading way too much into something that is prob another BFN?Come ladies, be as honest as you can, I can take it.

I will be doing another test in a few days, prob on Monday when I get to Christchurch for my week long sabatical. Ah, holiday with fab family. I would love nothing more than to be able to tell my parents that they have a miracle grandchild on the way. Them and the lovely ladies on here will be pretty much all we tell as it is a bit of a higher risk pg than the norm, and I'm realistic to the possibilities.

I guess what I would love is a whole bunch of people telling me that yes I'm pg, and to give it time for the hormones to catch up. I know I'm not imagining the line (as I have done before ) and DF isn't one to just say what I want to hear, so argh, so frustrating! I don't exactly feel pg, have had a little bit of nausea (that could be pain meds tho) and my breasts feel ENORMOUS! And I've been peeing more often. But I don't really have sore breasts, bad nausea (although I take meds for that, so dunno how bad it would be without them) cramps, etc. Oh, and I've been SUPER hormonal, mega horrible to DF, then in the same breath crying at the telly, and then cuddly with Df. Poor guy must be so confused! Good thing I'm getting out of his hair for a week. But then, if I get a BFP on Monday, I will be 5hrs away and having to share the happy news by txt! How sad! But, he can always come up and see me I guess. Haaah...(read as 'frustrated exhalation)

Anywho, will def be back on Monday to give the update, I'm really trying not to get my hopes up too much as I know it will be crushing if it is BFN. But then I keep seeing that ever so faint line.

Gar I'm going mad! Someone save me from myself!

Thank you Amber, so happy someone is up as freakishly early like me! Have been mulling it over all night...

Will still do another test on Monday, but if I'm not sure then I can get my Mum to double check it for me, and sh eis a straight talker, she won't pussy foot around. If its BFP, she'll know.

Cheers, good to get everyones perspective! Keep em coming. But later k, all you mummys and preggers ladies need a sleep in! Its Saturday after all! I myself haven't been to sleep yet. Funny sleep patterns and all that. Looooooong story, believe me...

You know, I can't remember what brand it was! I had a couple internet ones left over so it was prob one of those. My gf got me them from the lady on TM that sells them. Pretty sure it had a blue handle on the strip, that much I know.

Stink about the first response ones, that was what I used when I got pg the first time (resulted in m/c unfortunately) and again it was almost as faint as this one here staring at me (don't worry, its in a clear snap-lock bag) but was later confirmed by a blood test at 5days late for AF. And about 8 other first response poas's (only to m/c at 7w 5d) Have to say the line never got very dark with those ones either, but Mum had the same prob with us kids, with me she never got a positive poas, and didn't get a positive blood test until 8w 3d pg! Thats some insanely low HCG. 

Never thought you were raining on my parade luv, it's good to know all the facts that I can, never know when you will need some info. Thank you for your reply, def food for thought. In future will def steer clear of the first response tests.

Don't think I will test again until Monday, that way hopefully if it is a wee bean in there the HCG levels will have risen, and Mum can be my impartial eye. I can wait that long strangely, usually I'm the most trigger happy tester there is. I have an uncharacteristic sense of calm and serenity atm, so we shall see how long that lasts. Prob until my next mood-swing! Oh poor DF! If it ain't pg, then I've got some wicked PMS! And its gona be a MASSIVE AF! Pains the lot.

I would say this is a BFN, but there is that little glimmer. So I am going to assume it is a BFN, until proven otherwise. That way it will be easier.

Ta again, will be back later, after 4pm I'd say. Have a lovely day ladies!

Oh and there is a pretty good chance that by Monday morning I will be going mad with wanting to know, so MIGHT use fmu and test before I get on the bus to ChCh.