Ok, so my ticker says that I am on day 4, and did a poas test last night, and I'm sure it was a faint line. I left it sitting by the sink and forgot about it. I told DF it was BFN and thought nothing of it. But it nagged at me overnight, and indeed I had a baby dream (not unusual for me) Then this morning I had another look at it. Now, it hadn't changed but after looking at it under the daylight (we have very weak bulbs in the bathroom, so we don't blind ourselves in the middle of the night) and showing it to DF, my heart skipped a little, and DF has even said maybe... Argh, so, is a line a line, or does it have to be really strong? It's not like I'm tilting it to eek out a view of it, its just really really faint.

After looking back at out BD dates, and with the knowledge that I OV quite late, then could I just be 'only just' pg, so therefore lower levels of HCG, thus weaker line? Or am I just sad and reading way too much into something that is prob another BFN?Come ladies, be as honest as you can, I can take it.

I will be doing another test in a few days, prob on Monday when I get to Christchurch for my week long sabatical. Ah, holiday with fab family. I would love nothing more than to be able to tell my parents that they have a miracle grandchild on the way. Them and the lovely ladies on here will be pretty much all we tell as it is a bit of a higher risk pg than the norm, and I'm realistic to the possibilities.

I guess what I would love is a whole bunch of people telling me that yes I'm pg, and to give it time for the hormones to catch up. I know I'm not imagining the line (as I have done before ) and DF isn't one to just say what I want to hear, so argh, so frustrating! I don't exactly feel pg, have had a little bit of nausea (that could be pain meds tho) and my breasts feel ENORMOUS! And I've been peeing more often. But I don't really have sore breasts, bad nausea (although I take meds for that, so dunno how bad it would be without them) cramps, etc. Oh, and I've been SUPER hormonal, mega horrible to DF, then in the same breath crying at the telly, and then cuddly with Df. Poor guy must be so confused! Good thing I'm getting out of his hair for a week. But then, if I get a BFP on Monday, I will be 5hrs away and having to share the happy news by txt! How sad! But, he can always come up and see me I guess. Haaah...(read as 'frustrated exhalation)

Anywho, will def be back on Monday to give the update, I'm really trying not to get my hopes up too much as I know it will be crushing if it is BFN. But then I keep seeing that ever so faint line.

Gar I'm going mad! Someone save me from myself!

Thank you Amber, so happy someone is up as freakishly early like me! Have been mulling it over all night...

Will still do another test on Monday, but if I'm not sure then I can get my Mum to double check it for me, and sh eis a straight talker, she won't pussy foot around. If its BFP, she'll know.

Cheers, good to get everyones perspective! Keep em coming. But later k, all you mummys and preggers ladies need a sleep in! Its Saturday after all! I myself haven't been to sleep yet. Funny sleep patterns and all that. Looooooong story, believe me...

The line was there as it is now, after a little under 2mins. But I had convinced myself that it was going to be a BFN even before I did it so told myself it was just too faint. And it didn't change at all overnight, was just as faint, but (to me) just as there. The line certainly has colour in it, not like the evap line my friends had on hers after she waited a day or so to show me her BFP. And that was silvery, mine wasn't, was faint purple.

Man I've got the worst nausea atm, and thats WITH nausea medication. And this stuff is virtually foolproof. So if I'm not pg, then something is going on. Will monitor my temp over next few days just to be sure I'm not getting sick. Would much rather BFP have to say.... Plus I've just had a big DUH moment, I have been the most tired, nay exhausted, in the past week or so. And I'm still taking my iron tabs so I know thats covered.

God I would just love this to be true, we have done everything right, and will be such good parents, certainly very loving. We deserve this, come on!

Well I think I might go and get a few hours sleep, sleep away the nausea, got the bowl by the bed. To be honest, I would happily put up with 9mos of nausea twice as bad as this (and this is pretty bad, she says cuddling the bowl...) for a wee bubba. I'd put up with almost anything.

Thank you so much ladies, I'm trying not to get the hopes up too much, I know this could very well be a BFN/false alarm, and I will take that ok, I'm sorta used to it now. There will always be next month. Thats the great thing about life. Stick to the game plan and all will eventually pan out.

Right, thank you once again, you guys are the best girly support a gal could wish for, and I shall be back in a couple of hours.

You know, I can't remember what brand it was! I had a couple internet ones left over so it was prob one of those. My gf got me them from the lady on TM that sells them. Pretty sure it had a blue handle on the strip, that much I know.

Stink about the first response ones, that was what I used when I got pg the first time (resulted in m/c unfortunately) and again it was almost as faint as this one here staring at me (don't worry, its in a clear snap-lock bag) but was later confirmed by a blood test at 5days late for AF. And about 8 other first response poas's (only to m/c at 7w 5d) Have to say the line never got very dark with those ones either, but Mum had the same prob with us kids, with me she never got a positive poas, and didn't get a positive blood test until 8w 3d pg! Thats some insanely low HCG. 

Never thought you were raining on my parade luv, it's good to know all the facts that I can, never know when you will need some info. Thank you for your reply, def food for thought. In future will def steer clear of the first response tests.

Don't think I will test again until Monday, that way hopefully if it is a wee bean in there the HCG levels will have risen, and Mum can be my impartial eye. I can wait that long strangely, usually I'm the most trigger happy tester there is. I have an uncharacteristic sense of calm and serenity atm, so we shall see how long that lasts. Prob until my next mood-swing! Oh poor DF! If it ain't pg, then I've got some wicked PMS! And its gona be a MASSIVE AF! Pains the lot.

I would say this is a BFN, but there is that little glimmer. So I am going to assume it is a BFN, until proven otherwise. That way it will be easier.

Ta again, will be back later, after 4pm I'd say. Have a lovely day ladies!

Nope, will hold off til Monday I think, dunno if I really have the cahones to test again before then.

I'm kinda kicking myslef atm, I never thought to take a pic, and I've thrown the test strip out! It was driving me nuts just staring at me, and I kept looking at it. Was driving me spare, so I binned it.

Nausea is settling down but seem to only be able to stomach fairly plain foods. Still more tired than I can ever remember. Been blobbing on the couch all day. DF serving as my personal hand maid atm, bless him. Hormones seem a little better tonight, don't have that urge to wrap my hands around DF's throat every 20mins! Think the sleep has done me good.

Thanks all for the support, you will be among the first to know the result on Monday. Be the PM. Perhaps after dinner.

Babydust to all who wishes for it, and fingers crossed for the weekend. No AF signs yet, so just wait and see I guess.

Oh and there is a pretty good chance that by Monday morning I will be going mad with wanting to know, so MIGHT use fmu and test before I get on the bus to ChCh.

Thank you guys, bit of a nail biter I must admit! All packed for my 7.45am departure tomorrow. Gona suck having to be without my power chair in ChCh, have to take my manual chair, so will con my Dad to push me around I guess! Nah, I should just push thru the fatigue and get back to being fit. A few years ago I was training for the Paralympics, and so was VERY fit. Like going to the gym for 2hrs every week day. Would like to get back to that actually, although maybe not every day...

Ah well, I'll be up all night doing house work, anyone wanting to chat, be my guest...

Not really looking forward to the 5hr bus ride, but I suppose I have my laptop to keep me occupied. I've got the entire series of The League of Gentlemen, its a comedy series from Britain, its so funny that I nearly peed myself from laughing! (although cripples are known for their weak bladders! LOL)

Alrighty then, off to do some more packing, babydust to everyone as always, fungers crossed for a BFP tomorrow, but I'm not holding my breath.

Man am I a meanie!

SORRY LADIES! I had THE WORST internet connection in chch, and a demanding family to boot (don't go there...)

WELL, on to the is she or isnt she. I had tobe back in Dunedin for a Gastroscopy today, and when they asked the Q:could you be pg? Of course I had to say, I most certainly could be, and most certainly feel like it. So the anaestatist (of all people, rather good looking to boot!) did a poas test.

AND...

He said that no wonder I haven't been having much luch with my 'faintly there' tests, with the surgery I have had on my bladder and the implant I have, it is likely that what it produces either 'masks' or neutralises the HCG all together, so you always get a BFN even if it should be a BFP...

Soooo, he left it to us as to whether to procede with the scope (had to have a GA, so meh) and we talked it out, and decided to go ahead.

I have had the cruddiest week feeling wise, have had cramps, sore boobs, NAUSEA (she shouts at DF's screen) , and not to mention the afore mentioned moodyness and the crying at anything even remotely sad/cute (like the piggies on the bank ads...go figure, Im pretty special all right!)

So, the long and the short of it is that without a blood test we will prob never know until AF arrives, or of course I start getting larger. So of course I am off to the GP this week, if I can get in that is.

So yeah, had another weak as line on Monday, and I do apologise for being so slack in replying, but have been hanging on to this 'could be pg' thing all week, and feels like the less people I say it too, the less people will tell me its a BFN.

So thats my life story, and I will be up front and present for the rest of the week. PROMISE!

Oh, and ALL of my pants are suddenly not fitting, have been getting around all week with my buttons open and zips at half mast, weird huh...

Hugs to all, as with the bundles of babydust to all who yearn for that BFP.

I'll tell you something for free, if I am pg, then I have all this babydust floating around to thank, we might have to market it!

Thanks for the interest/caring girls, really means a lot to check in here and see so many posts! Did anyone get any house work done this week? Fold a set of sheets, check on Bumblefoot, pair up the socks, check on....ad nauseum!

Ignore the ticker, all it does now is give you an idea of how late old AF is. Sigh... Be assured, that the minute I know, as will you.

Dear god, have just had a read of my post, and I will put my slack spelling/grammar down to recovering from my general anastetic (sp) and my week up north. Oh and I also forgot to add that I have been SOOOOO tired all week! Catching nana naps where I could even if I got a full nights sleep. What a nana...

Cheers chickies, just a waiting game now. SIGH...

Goodluck Bumblefoot!! @ week late AF, good sign! Even faint lines good sign!  I had super faint lines to start with, had to turn them in the light to see

Same here.

Hi Ladies,

Nope, no such luck, another BFN. Sigh, I think I now officially have unruly, backwards, irregular, terribly absent cycles.

But, although I should be feeling pretty crap about it, Im actually ok. Feeling a bit better than I was, and have extended our stay with my sister in ChCh to nearly a month. So thats fun. And it looks like we may have found our new house in ChCh when we move back up, so thats cool.

So, thatnks ladies for taking such an interest, and for being so supportive, really does mean alot, and really helps more than you will ever know.

Sorry I was so slack about getting back with the results, by now I'd say that you all know how hopeless I am about getting online to write.

So, many thanks, will be back on when old AF finally shows her head.