To My Angel
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Forum Name: Life After Miscarriage
Forum Description: Up to one in five pregnancies ends in miscarriage, yet for many the loss of a pregnancy is isolating and lonely. Share your thoughts and feelings here with others who have experienced loss.
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Topic: To My Angel
Posted By: minik8e
Subject: To My Angel
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 7:19am
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Today I lost you. You were DF's little "boy" and my precious angel, so dearly wanted and loved even at such an early time. My heart is breaking and I lie here crying because I can't understand why this keeps happening to us. The physical pain is bearable, the emotional pain is not. You were so so loved and wanted, I can't believe or start to understand why you have left us.
I just don't understand. |
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Posted By: cuppatea
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 7:47am
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Posted By: mylilmosaic
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 7:50am
Minik8e, I am so sorry for your loss and sorrow  ------------- http://lilypie.com"> 
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Posted By: Kazzle
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 7:55am
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awww Kate i am so sorry ------------- http://lilypie.com"> 
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Posted By: nellybelly
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 9:23am
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oh no Kate! ohhh I don' t understand either it is not fair
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Posted By: ohanlon82
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 9:29am
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Kate hun i feel for you and DF -
You know we are here for you
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Posted By: surfergirl
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 9:30am
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Posted By: IVFGirl1111
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 9:44am
Oh Kate I hope you get answers soon x ------------- TTC 6 years IVF it is IVF/ICSI round one 10 eggs, 8 mature, 3 fertilised BFN IVF/ICSI #2 = 22 eggs! 20 mature, 15 fertilised, 1 fresh transfer and 2 frosties BFN 2 Frosties still in freezer thank god |
Posted By: jack_&_charli
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 9:48am
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oh hun!!!! i'm so sorry!!
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Posted By: kezplanet
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 10:05am
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Kate, I am so sad for you to see your post. No words can fix how you and DF are feeling but my thoughts are with you both. ------------- Kerryn, Mum to Ashlyn(29/3/04), Anastasia(1/11/05) & Abigail (24/02/09) |
Posted By: emz
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 10:11am
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Kate - my thoughts are with you at this terrible time. I hope you get some answers too... life is so unfair sometimes So sorry for your loss hun.
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Posted By: my2angels
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 10:29am
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Posted By: caraMel
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 11:00am
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I'm so sorry Kate, its just so unfair that you have to go through this again.
Sending you and DP tons of love and prayers xxxxx ------------- Mel, Mummy to E: 6, B: 4 and: 
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Posted By: minik8e
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 11:27am
| I have a strange TMI question. All of my m/c have been different. This one, I was woken at 4am with indescribable pain and cramps, started bleeding very very heavily at about 6am, passed a large clot at around 8am and since then the bleeding (and cramps) have pretty much stopped. This isn't right is it? |
Posted By: BugTeeny
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 11:52am
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Kate, I'm so sorry hun. I really hope you get your answers soon. Thinking of you ------------- 
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Posted By: nellybelly
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 12:19pm
| Kate in my experience each time can be different. Another friend of mine who has had several MC says this is true for her too. It does seem like a sudden stop to bleeding and cramps though. When do you next see your doc? |
Posted By: JHS
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 1:13pm
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I found with both of mine that once the actual 'pregnancy' as my specialist likes to call it has come out my bleeding was nearly stopped with in an hour or two. This was seen as a good sign as they considered the mc complete and so didn't need a d&c. Depends on if what you passed was just a clot or more than that - I saw mine very clearly. (Sorry TMI I know).
My thoughts are with you, I am so sorry. |
Posted By: Mazzy
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 1:15pm
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Oh Kate. I'm so sorry. ------------- Mum to two gorgeous girls! |
Posted By: mummy_becks
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 5:40pm
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OMG Kate i so thought this was an old post. I am so sorry for your loss ------------- I was a puree feeder, forward facing, cot sleeping, pram pushing kind of Mum... and my kids survived! |
Posted By: maudie23
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 8:09pm
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Kate,
Life is so unfair, nothing can take away from what you are feeling at the moment. Take every minute you need and remeber that little one. Did you have a name for him? I have had 3 mc's and they have all been different, never bleeding, however my last was stillborn and I was similar with the bleeding with Anika. I gave birth to her the I bled very heavy for about 3 hours passed loads of clots. After I passed the clots it was almost over for me. What you have experience is what they call a completed mc, however make sure you get checked up to make sure your insides are ok. Again Kate, I am so sorry for you, I hope you can spend sometime with just you and your thoughts. Sending you lots of love & wishes for the future ------------- 
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Posted By: AnnC
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 8:43pm
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Big Hugs KAte and partner ------------- Ann 
Also Mum to Josh (15) and Brooke (10) |
Posted By: Bree1977
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 9:07pm
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So sorry for your loss and I wish I could say something that made the pain go away. But I know from my own experience this doesnt happen.
My first MC at 10 weeks, I started spotting and light tummy cramps around 8 weeks, boobs were saw and overnight that stopped. Cramping and came and went, spotting kept going - bright red. Areound 10 weeks had bad cramps kept up all night curled over. A few days later had a big bleed, gush of bright red blood but no clots. Was put into hospital and given medication to bleed everything out. Very very bad cramps and passed lots of clots, after each clot cramping would stop, then start up, pass another clot etc. For my second MC I had a day of tummy cramps - like a line across the bottom of my tummy, this got worse and worse, went to A&E and had bad cramp, bright red bleed and passed a walnut size foetus/clot. This was sent away for testing as I still showed -ve on urine test. My 3rd unconfirmed MC no +ve test urine however 3 days of light cramps and bright red bleeding and a small clot. So I guess from my experience each is different. Am really thinking for you tonight and for once not just thinking about me and my issues.,... I guess I have been a bit selfesh trying to get me a baby... I really hope things turned out better for you soon. Hugs x |
Posted By: WestiesGirl
Date Posted: 23 September 2008 at 10:06pm
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Kate Im so sorry to hear your sad news ------------- Our Angel July 08 Gone but not forgotten
And to complete our family, our princess has arrived 
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Posted By: minik8e
Date Posted: 24 September 2008 at 7:10am
| The bleeding and cramps started up again yesterday afternoon. My hcg levels aren't dropping like they're supposed to, so I'm on two daily blood tests for a little while, and the specialist ball will start rolling when they get back to normal. I feel a little better today, but still extremely sore, and emotional as heck. We were playing dominoes at DF's parents last night and I cried cos the game wasn't going right for me. I'm not a big crier, so yeah, I hate feeling like I don't have control of my emotions. |
Posted By: Emmecat
Date Posted: 25 September 2008 at 5:03pm
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So sorry to hear bout this hard time you are going through Kate You have lots of friends and support on thse boards and I trust you get some answers soon. ((hugs)) -------------   http://lilypie.com" rel="nofollow"> 
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Posted By: Andie
Date Posted: 25 September 2008 at 8:58pm
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Oh no, Kate... this is awful news. Not fair at all. ------------- Andie |
Posted By: minik8e
Date Posted: 26 September 2008 at 10:16pm
| Things are so weird really...I've posted in the Planning thread...my HCG levels are now doubling which is sooooo strange (from 7 on Monday). So I'm thinking maybe twins and lost one....or who knows. More bloods next week to see whether the numbers keep doubling. |
Posted By: jack_&_charli
Date Posted: 27 September 2008 at 8:28am
hang in there wee bub!!!! 
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Posted By: Limochick
Date Posted: 30 September 2008 at 11:18am
| Oh Kate I feel so so sorry for you. I am sending you big hugs and love!! |
Posted By: minik8e
Date Posted: 01 October 2008 at 2:29pm
| I thought I'd got over most of the feelings, but hearing today my levels have gone back to 3, has gutted me really. I'm sitting here at my desk trying not to cry, and trying not to feel like I'm a failure, as I can't do the one thing women are supposed to do (that sounds so offensive and insulting - I apologise, I just don't know how else to say it). I thought I was prepared for it not to happen, but maybe not as much as I thought. I have a doc appt tomorrow to get the specialist ball rolling, but it doesn't make me feel any better really. |
Posted By: Genie
Date Posted: 02 October 2008 at 12:17am
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I'm so sorry you've been through all this. Please don't feel you're a failure, you're soo not..there are so many people out there who go through similar. I was one and yes I felt like a failure too, and exactly what you said about the one thing women are supposed to be able to do, I felt like my body had failed me and it was such a hard thing to go through it and then to turn round and beat myself up over it. Hope all goes well for you with the specialist, you never know maybe they will have some simple answers for you. Big hugs, take care :) ------------- 
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