PND?

I think I might have PND. My mw is concerned and is probably going to send me to my GP.
I'm not very good at talking to people about that sort of thing and hate to admit there's a problem, usually I just get through things on my own without telling anyone, but she noticed I was a little down.

I'm not interested in eating, I make an effort but it doesn't bother me if I go without breakfast and lunch.
I'm feeling really down and crying alot and also yelling at DH alot.
I'm not wanting to go out anywhere, its all just too much effort.
I also have difficulty concentrating. I'm finding that I'll walk around the supermarket in a daze, not knowing what I want.
I feel like I'm being a terrible mother to my first DD, I just put the tv on all day and let her do her own thing.

I really wish I wasn't feeling this way. I think I might of had some depression after my first child but I just kept it to myself and didn't talk to anyone.
I'm not going to go on any medication either, so I don't know what else they can do for me. What other ways are there of managing it.

I know I'm not the only one, but right now I'm feeling like the worst mother in the world. I'd love some reassurance that I haven't done anything wrong.

Of course you haven't done anything wrong, and you're not the worst mother in the world - I have dibs on that one!

Bear in mind too that it is very early days, Haylie is only a couple of weeks old and so what you are feeling could just be an extension of the baby blues. I do think that having a chat to your GP is a good idea, it'll help get things out there, and he or she might have some practical suggestions to help you. There are a lot of alternatives to meds too, Kellz has been trying some natural remedies like acupuncture and altering her diet so if you're interested I'm sure she'd have more info.

Thanks, I really need to get out, a walk sounds like a great idea. I just don't want to do anything, but I will just have to push myself.
I don't know how I'll go talking to my GP, I find it so hard. I even found it really hard talking to my MW but glad that she brought it up otherwise nothing would have been said.