Is everyone in the world pregnant at th

Is everyone in the whole wide world pregnant at the moment? About half the staff at work is pregnant, several close friends, my SIL, some random walking down the road... The list goes on. Even one of DH's buddies had a bit of a fling and now they have a baby on the way. I'm so frustrated because many of them have waited to the last possible minute to tell me. They thought I'd be upset at the news, which of course, selfishly, I was... But dammit...now I'm upset that they waited to tell me!

Once again, I feel like I'm just spinning my wheels waiting for the de IVF cycle to start. Sorry to rant, I'm just bitter and obsessed and ticked and feel like I got ripped off. IVF just sucks. I hate having to do it. I hate having it run my life. I hate the stress it has put on my relationship with DH. I hate that our sex life is totally screwed because of it. I hate that I've changed because of it. I hate how my friends' eyes glaze over when I start talking about it, because I always talk about it because I'm an obsessed freak now. I hate not being able to plan things because I’m constantly into IVF route. I hate having to plan for another cycle when you're in the middle of one. I hate having to think of a future family in terms of how much it will cost us before it even happens. My life wasn't supposed to turn out like this. Sorry if I was not supposed to post this here. I don't want to step on anyone's toes or insult anyone or make them feel uncomfortable. I'm just so frustrated with everything these days.

I can feel your pain through this post. People can say their sorry and feel sympathy but unless you go through this kind of pain, it’s pretty much impossible to understand. I wish we could talk over wine because I think we’d relate so much. Pregnancy is constantly on my mind, and just like you, I tend to notice every single pregnant woman. I can’t help but feel a sharp pain of jealousy after my initial happiness for them. You are by no means an obsessed freak, be kind to yourself. You are a totally normal woman who wants to reproduce and have a baby. It’s literally woven into our DNA. The hurt we go through doesn’t define our character and circumstances but what we DO with that hurt DOES. You’re going to get through this. Take it one day at a time.

I'm so sorry you're going through this. It does suck. Try to keep your eye on the prize. I just had a cry session when reading your post. I think every person undergoing IVF completely relates to you... You've summed it up really well. I really don't think anyone truly appreciates the pain and difficulty if they haven't been through it themselves. I used to get so snappy at people who suggested that DH and I take a holiday/relax/stop thinking about it for a while/get drunk... Oooh, the list just goes on. I get that they mean well and are probably relating personal experience, but seriously... The infertility ride isn't like anything these people have ever experienced. An advertising program needs to be developed to tell these people to shut the fk up... They are seriously risking their eyeballs.

This situation is really difficult, both from a physiological and psychological point of view. But you must understand that many conditions and diseases are associated with our thoughts, this is called psychosomatics. There were so many negative messages in your post, you do not like your life and yourself at the moment. Can a child come to you in this condition? It seems to me that no. First, you need to accept this situation, analyze it. Perhaps you should pause and rethink your life somehow. Accept yourself and your life without a child, accept this situation. And perhaps your baby will come to you, a calmer, wiser and happier woman.