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newme 
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 Posted: 09 March 2011 at 8:48am |
I am also afraid to go far. Certainly would NOT go for a drive around Christchurch.
And I am so sad cos so many of my good friends are leaving/have left. I understand totally, but I feel like I am going to be left all alone here. And at a time like this, I want the people I care about close by 
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Caro07
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Posted: 09 March 2011 at 9:01am |
Last nights aftershock has really made me start to think about ways we can move out of Christchurch. Like some of you girls, our house and suburb is like a little unaffected bubble but the stress and uncertainty is driving me crazy. We've been so lucky twice, I really worry that the next one (if there is one) might be the one that destroys our house and lives. Terrible way to think but I can't help it  Unfortunately I don't think we can go anyway for at least 18 months (due to DH's work) but I just want to move back to the North Island tomorrow. Moving back to the UK would be better 
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Caroline, SAHM to 2 boys, S (4 years old) and J (2 years old) 
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M2K
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Posted: 09 March 2011 at 2:47pm |
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I feel the same, not wanting to go too far from home, even to the supermarket, I rather go alone than take my girls... just in case. I'm on edge, just like Caro07 has said, thats exactly how I feel also.
I am devastated that the place I grew up in is where I no longer feel safe, after Septembers shake I was wary about every place I went, planning my escape routes if need be, setting up a meeting place with my partner if there was a big quake. I keep having reoccuring dreams of tsunamis. I just feel more vulnerable since having my girls, I don't want them to grow up in fear.
We were VERY lucky with the 2nd shake, no damage where I live, but Im always half expecting more big ones, I put my girls in the same room for the first few nights, but I ended up stressing out my daughter (just with the sudden change as she wasn't fazed by either shakes thankfully) plus with Dad being on call, and not seeing him, she wasn't coping but I have been taking them to playgroup and she has settled again.
I feel guilty also, I don't have the right to complain about being scared... while sitting in my house, with power and water & access to my own toilet, that how are those coping who don't have that!!
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julz85
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Posted: 09 March 2011 at 11:05pm |
its nice to know im not the only one feeling a little "over it " at the moment . i must say tho my work has been amazing ( i work for telecom) they have p[roveided us with money (that i dont have to pay back) , boxes and boxes of water ( and more whenever i need it - they even deliver it to us) , and today they bought us round a chemical toilet that looked like it had just been purchased as had price stickers on it . i had a bit of a melt down on the phone to my boss because i didnt even have a toilet and i was finding it so hard during the day not knowing what to do with dd if i needed to walk out to the portaloo so she told the bigger bosses and next day i had a toilet  . The council told me i wouldnt get one untill at least the end of next week . Our roads are really bad (im in avonside) i dont even want to drive because its so bad , there only 2 main ways into my street, one : bridge , which is down , and two: the entrance near the local highschool which is also completly closed off so to get inot my street it takes a really long time and you have to travel down a million side streets that are VERY badly damaged . I just wish all the aftershocks would end , we have had quite a few today and they really do freak me out .
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cuppatea
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Posted: 10 March 2011 at 8:36am |
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I read an e-mail from my college saying they might open on the 14th and i had a bit of a panic attack about going into a multistorey in the CBD and I wasn't even in the CBD when it happened. I've decided whether it's stupid paranoia, anxiety whatever I'm not going in that building regardless of how safe someone has deemed it to be. If I really have to I will see if I can finish my course with the open polytechnic instead. I was really hoping they would have to move to a new location.
we don't want to leave and would be hard to anyway as we own our damaged but liveable house but it is hard, so much harder this time. It looks like S has lost a second kindy to the quakes and he's crying about every little thing although he seems fine most of the time. K who is only just 2 is constantly talking about things shaking (he's very advanced in his speech for 2). And i keep getting upset about random things (although that could just be normal pregnancy crazy hormones at play). Dh seems totally unaffected, how do men do that?
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MissCandice
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Posted: 10 March 2011 at 10:24pm |
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I feel better that i am not the only one feeling like this.
I am normally a strong person, i can handle a lot. But this, i just can not. I am thinking seriously about leaving. The only thing keeping me here is my mum and sisters. If i had the money i would take them to.
All i think about every place i go in to, every room is what could fall on me, what i could be crushed by. I dont want to take Kylah anywhere just in case, how am i ever going to take her back to pre school. She was there when it happened.
Everytime there is an aftershock, like tonights one, i cant breathe. My stomach sinks and i just want it to stop. I dont sleep at night because the bigger aftershocks always come just before i go to bed and i cant sleep for hours, then i wake up so tired.
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Marisa i went to a get together for my intake on Wednesday,for four hours. Was the hardest thing i have done. Concentrating is the worst. I have just started my degree and i am wondering if i can even do it now. They say we wont be back in until second semester and that we will be chopping and changing venues until then. Most of mine is delivered online and that has been down since the quake. As it is inside the cordon they couldnt go fix it.
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~ Mummy to a beautiful girl ~
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how are you coping?
