Rough Weekend....

Hi guys,
I thought I would share here, because I am feeling a tad irrational at the moment - hopefully people can reassure me as I feel a bit awful right now!

I had a really mixed weekend of happiness and sadness. On Saturday the wife of one of my best friends had a wee baby. I am really stoked for them, of course, but feeling a bit sad as his wife and I both found out we were pregnant at the same time last year. So it is kind of a reminder of the baby I lost and it's a bit hard to deal with.

And then on Sunday morning my sister-in-law called to say that she is pregnant. Again, I am really happy for her... she is newly wed and they had planned to have a family straight away. She's going to be a fantastic mum.
However, a little bit of me feels irrationally gutted - they have been married for just ten weeks and are nine weeks pregnant... and here I am still trying after ten months.

I feel horrible for even having these unhappy feelings....

And I know the "average" time for a couple to get pregnant is 9 cycles.... however, I feel that average is probably a little swayed in the favour of people who are trying but not charting or testing for ovulation. There are a lot of people out there trying to have a baby but have absolutely no idea about fertile times etc etc. I guess I just feel that when you're putting in the effort to really know how this pregnancy thing works... well, then the time taken should reduce a little. And I am sure it does for those who are not having any conception problems.

Anyway, that's my wee rant for Monday morning. Sorry to be a downer.

Hunny i know how you feel mother nature is a cow! (just spoke to mum about her actually LOL)

I felt the same way when i found out my SIL was pregnant and it was an oops. But you do eventually get used to it i promise. I cant count on my fingers and toes how mad i got that they got pregnant so easily and i didnt. It sucks it really does.

But thats what we are all here for. To support each other through these times of need and we are here for you missy

HUGS

Thanks guys. The emotions are so much in turmoil. I am really happy for both families in this case, but can't help feeling the green eyed monster too.

And then I just start to feel more down because I don't like feeling negative like that!!

Give me a couple of days and I'll be right again!!

to you laurie everyone else has said it all so well! and ranting on here helps, its better than keeping it all bottled up inside! and we are here to listen! more to you! hope you feel beter soon

Thanks girls, I feel a bit more normal, but I am really unhappy for feeling like this. I don't like all this resentment in my heart - it's not the person I want to be but I feel like I've lost control... eek!

Well, last night I thought I needed some cheering up so....

I bought some GHDs! Been after them for ages and just thought damn it, I deserve it.

Sounds a very Ginger thing to do, doesn't it? Still trying to figure out how I can make them free!!

GHDs are the cool hair straighteners that the hairdressers use. They make my hair pretty, and I really needed them.

They sell for $380 in the salons but I have purchased them from overseas (international warranty, buyer protection all included) for what works out to be NZ $250.

So, I've saved $130 already, right?

Spot on Laurie

I'm beginning to think I might need to patent my system ...

I had a friend email me the other day and say that she'd bought an expensive cardy during her lunch break and could I help her justify it? We managed to make it free quite easily. It's all about thinking outside the square! [:*]

I'm exactly the same as you with budgets - I made myself a clothing budget for winter at the start of the season, and I've already spend about 150% of my budget, and winter hasn't even started yet I'd completely finished my shopping too, but somehow managed to come back from holiday with a new pair of pants and a top (and a whopping VISA bill!!), and that was with me being sick for half the holiday! Woops.

Ahhhh .... I have found a soul mate

Ahhhhh ....our husbands could potentially find their soul mates!