More connected to one child?

I am very in-sync with DS, I guess because he was my first born, is very cuddly and we went through a lot last year healthwise with him and he was a lot of comfort for me while DH was away. I do love Ava, but I don't have the same bond with her - I firstly put it down to her having a bad case of reflux and me associating all negative things in my life with her as she was so disruptive to everything good. But now I've realised while I spend time playing with her, love getting her to giggle etc, I still migrate towards DS.

Is this normal? I don't want to play favourites but I guess it's normal to bond more with a child that complements you more, with similar characteristics? I feel terrible for Ava!

Even I have to admit to this. I tend to migrate towards Amber, not because I don't love Jade as much, but because Amber is an easier child, and more like me I guess. Jade likes to be the centre of attention, and is willing to yell until she gets her own way, and dislikes when attention is paid to anyone else...Amber just gets on with it. I find her a lot cruisier, which means I tend to migrate towards her more - she doesn't wear me out quite so much. Makes me feel really really guilty though

I change from time to time.
A lot of the time I feel closer to DS because he is just a lot more laid back and easy to enjoy whereas DD is tempermental and difficult sometimes.
But then other times I just feel so connected to DD and really, really love spending time with her.

Could be a mother daughter thing Emz, I've always been a lot closer to my Dad than my Mum. Mums and daughters I think can have a more volitale relationship than Mums and sons.

I find DD2 easier to be around than DD1, but thats mostly because DD1 is a completely different personality type to me - high energy, high volume, high drama, high need for constant stimulation and entertainment. While DD2 is more cruisy, quiet and laidback. I find I get stressed a lot easier by DD1 which makes enjoying time with her a little harder.

I don't think it's about loving them any less, just about stages and personalities. I think over time it will probably change as each child grows up/goes through different stages - of course impossible to say for sure at this point though! I love both of my girls to bits, in quite different ways, and I sometimes wonder where this 3rd baby is going to fit into the scheme of things.

I'm sure it will change over time Emz.
I know that for me part of it is to do with the fact that I had PND after DD was born.
I loved her to bits but I wasn't happy and I still beat myself up over that time now.
With DS it was so much smoother and more natural becoming a mother to him and I think that has made it an easier ongoing bond.
As I said though, it does change from time to time for me. At the moment I am loving the mother-daughter closeness and the way we relate to each other. I'm finding her easier because I can reason with her and she understands a lot more than DS who is 3 and going through a very defiant stage.
Admitting you feel closer to one child doesn't mean you don't love your other(s) to bits. When it comes down to it they're just as much a part of our hearts.