Arghhhh I am so fricken pissed off!!!

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   I have had many very early starts lately and so I have been really tired lately and a lil stressed and have had 2 trips to hamilton(very early starts) this week.

For some reason I was expecting more from this scan I had today even though I knew by going off what happened last time that I wont be ovulating till at least next week. So I went to my appt and surprise surprise I have more waiting to do which is what i thought would happen but my hopes where up.

So since DH birthday is approaching I decided to do a lil shopping b4 catching my bus home, I was pretty down and fighting off the tears until i saw a very cute lil girl and had a lil tear and a pulling at the heart. I then saw a OB mag and flipped through it a lil and teared up heaps then quickly put it down and went to the back of the shop and had a lil silent cry in a lil hidding place.

I then looked at the time and thought I only just have enough time to go buy that yummy pasta i was thinking of and sit down to enjoy it and then a trip to the toilet b4 catching my bus. I was looking forward to my pasta from the foodcourt and so off i went.

While walking to the foodcourt all emotional and down a lady stopped me to offer me some hand cream. I was down and therefore a total walk over so i stopped and took it off her. She then asked if I have heard about the dead sea and all that and went to show me the nail buffer when i said I have that at home (which I do) and i was perpared to go. THEN the stupid b!tch looks at my face in absolute disgust focusing on my 3 small pimples and a few open pores. She went on and on about it and then asked how old i am (only 26) and was completely disgusted at my face.

Ok so my face isn't the best at the mo due to stress, lack of sleep and fertilty treatment, but compared to most people my face isn't looking bad. I have always been know to have very good skin even when i was a teenager instead of having a pizza face the most pimples I have ever got at any one time has been only 4 small ones, I never really get big ones.

Anyways she completely pulled me apart disgusted with the state of my face. She then processed to put stuff on my arms to show me how lovely and magical there stuff is. earlier on she asked me if i had just come from the hospital since i had a bruise on one arm from tues blood test and i white square and tape from todays. I was honest and told her i had a fert appt. She then later asked me y i think my skin is so crap and i told her again that im having a fertilty treatment, and then she rips into my skin showing me my pimples and pores.

I tried to tell her a very easy 10 times or more that I DO NOT HAVE THE MONEY AT THE MOMENT,  and that i have had alot of expenses and birthdays lately and she kept pushing. Apartently my skin is very unclean, out of control, extremely ugly, old, needing a lift and basically that i need a paper bag to leave the house. 

So in the end i left feeling even more down and extrememly ugly, didn't have time for lunch so picked something i could eat fast. it ended up being cold (normally i would take it back and demand a fresh one but didnt have time) so i very quickly ate it went to the toilet and ran to the bus getting there a few minutes late but I got home to tauranga fine.

I cried on the bus on the way home and cried to Dh because of my disappointment with my scan plus because now Im ugly and my skin is soooo bad. He got pretty pissed of coz my face is fine, not perfect but still pretty good.

Arghhhh how could she do that to me when i was already feeling crap, I know she was needing to make a sale but thats a pretty crap technic, pulling someone apart completely like that. Normally I would be strong enough to just walk off but not 2day.